I am full-time with Roselyn till beginning of september 2006. This is made possible because I safe alot of leave plus 3 months of maternity and one month of adoption leave.

Roselyn is so attached to me that I still do not find time to write. We are still sleeping with her in her room. Till today she still has nightmares (not everyday) and wakes up to look for me and I have to calm her down. I think this happens if she experiences new contacts and she does not know how to deal with and she was scared or unsure.

Playing at home gives her alot of happiness, security and confidence. She is very curious at alot of things. She keeps observing me and Rudy very closely. She communicates with us in her own ways (by pointing, pulling our hands and go with her or crying) to show her things. She is not talking any cantonese of mandarin till today. She will not be satisfied till an explanation or having seen and felt and experiments with the things she just got hold of.

Since the very begining we speak to her in dutch. She seems to understand us and in fact she is saying a few dutch words like : this, toilet, upstairs, very goed, papa, turn around, bye-bye, see you again.

She understands me in dutch if I say: sleep, doing big business (poep), drinking, eat-up, sit properly, do it on your own, go up or down, walk, stop, come here, give mama/papa a kiss, sayang (give me a soft touch on the face), put your shoes on, put your shoes away, put your socks on, put on your jacket, brush your teeth, put your toys away, hold the spoon on your right hand, try not to suck your tumb, dirty, throw away in the rubbish bin, do not do it (we do struggle on this because she is stubborn).

Mothering is an experience that I take it naturally ... my feelings for her is like I gave birth to her right from the first day when she walks timidly to me (hand-over from her nanny) on the 20th of March 2006 in the adoption office in China. Giving her all the love an assurance that I can offer to make her feel secure and happy.

The first 10 days in China was very emotional when I hear crying in her bed at night sadly.... it was broken nights for the three of us.

But now we are living happily each day enjoying mothering and fathering her to be a happy, independent and ethical person.

We enjoy her smile, laughter, her sweet caringness for us, kindness and charmingness to other people (she gives her toys or food willingly if asked for), intelligence, obedience and cheekyness.

We hope to be able to introduce Roselyn to my family and friends in Malaysia when the three of us have settled down. When ? No idea yet.